Feel like bragging...

I'm sitting here at 4am, depressed and insomnia-ridden, and horny.  So I thought I'd brag to no one since no one ever fucking reads this site (except the auto-fellatio post which gets a ton of google traffic).

I've got a beautiful big dick.  Despite the near endless refusals, jokes, and embarrassing situations it gets me in, I still cant help but look down and think "My god!  what a huge fucking dick!".  Even now, when I pause from typing, I'm holding it in my hands stroking it lightly.  I can't believe I'm holding so much cock.  It's terribly arousing to have this fat heavy thing poking up from my crotch.  Why did such a nerdy, shy guy like me end up with a cock bigger than most porn stars.  hell, most porn stars would kill for even 8" of steel-hard meat.  But I'm hung like a horse and it gets so completely hard and huge!  Can anyone blame me for being so aroused by my own penis?

I wish I could scream from the rooftops "I have a huge fat cock!"  Its payback for all the guys who would beat me up everyday in junior high.  they're probably tiny and ugly.  and yet i know what women whisper in the bedroom when their husbands arent around to hear, when they promise "please dont tell anyone, but oh my god bigger is better", or i watch them cum, repeatedly, just with me bottoming out in them....i love watching them moan and squirm and breathe heavily as the orgasm hits and they are so full of cock that they can't see straight.

I have a huge fat cock!  I have a huge fat cock!  I have the most beautiful big penis that I've ever seen.  All men wish they were as big as me, and most women fear what I have here.  Ah god, I'm so goddamn big!  I'm going to go wrap my hands around this beautiful fat cock...its so fucking huge!!!!

Testicle Size

So the other day, a sympathetic friend of mine (who knows some of my difficulties around having a huge cock) asked to see my cock. So, I dropped my pants and underwear to appease her curiosity. Her reaction was strong but instead of commenting on my flaccid cock size (nearly 5"!), she goes "Oh my god! Huge Balls!!!" and begins giggling uncontrollably. She could not get over how large my testicles were and made a big issue over them.

 Admittedly, I knew I had huge balls. They've always been a problem by being in the way, making pants tight and uncomfortable, and being overly sensitive. But to see her reaction only reminded me how MUCH bigger they are than most. While I'm not going to sit here and calculate my ball volume against average, I am easily 50-75% bigger than the average sized ones. Legitimately, they are huge. The average is 2" long (just one dimension) while one of mine is over 3" long.

 Having huge balls hasn't benefitted me in any way. It's always been mostly a negative, with the pain and challenges associated with stuffing these down my pants everyday. I can't think of a single day I haven't had to deal with them in some way. Surreptitiously adjusting, pain, sitting on them, etc. But there are so few resources out there for men with large testicles, I thought I should come out of blogging retirement (so to speak) to mention it. If you too have overly large balls, comment below! I dont know anyone else with large ones, but I would like someone to commiserate with!

Too big!

So this woman I know wants to sleep with me. So one night, when we were alone, she started kissing me and feeling me up. Since it's been years since I've even gotten a blowjob, I was pretty happy with this.

But then when she felt erection she got all funny and started pulling it out. "Oh my god, that's the biggest fucking cock I've ever seen.", she said. She sat back looking at it wide eyed and asked me how big it is. When I told her, she sorta sat there and then said, "That's probably too big for me. Where did you get that?" We joked about my size a bit, letting her feel how heavy it is and all, and i let her watch as i sucked on it a little, but nothing got her to do anything but stare.

It happens alot, me sitting there with my huge erection while someone stares at it or comments on it. I liked that it impressed her and that its the biggest one she'd ever seen, but I knew then, that I wasn't going to get anything. Usually, being the nice guy, I go "it's okay, dont worry. we can just hang out." and get nothing.

I can only imagine how scary it must be to see, it certainly amazes me when I look at it. Times like that though i wish I was big but not so massive. 7" would be ideal wouldn't it? Guys that big have it so lucky. This big, all I'm good for is the shock value.

Lonesome

Sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to about these things. So much of my sexuality is buried and a secret to those around me, it would be so wonderful to have a friend, male or female, to really just talk to me about my penis, its size, and other sorts of related topics. I know that sounds weird to some, but I just have so much I want to get off my chest and a blog is great, but I know no one is reading this. I wish I could share more stories about it, talk about the size of my orgasms (it's pretty freaky how much I can cum. But who can I tell that to?), or whatever is on my mind.

I sound obsessed. I probably am. Do you blame me?

Anyone need to make some extra money?

I would be willing to pay someone just to let me say to them:

"I have a gigantic, thick cock"

I think the whole purpose of this blog is to just finally be able to say that out loud without anyone thinking im a jerk, an ass, etc. I keep it to myself, very few people know, I even make an effort to hide the bulge when I'm not alone. But I just wanna get it off my chest. It's huge. So big, I can't believe it. So why can't I find anyone to tell that to?

Some more random thoughts

Some stream of consciousness thoughts about my cock:

I love that, without a frame of reference, my cock isnt terribly impressive looking. This is because its proportionally as thick as it is long, so it looks "normal". But then when i compare it to something else, I realize its fucking huge as hell. I also love that people who first see it sometimes dont react, until they cant get their hands around it and go "ooooohhh".

i take it for granted that i can stroke it with both hands. most guys only need one. i feel bad for them that they dont know the sensation of holding a heavy thick cock in both hands, with plenty of room left over.

When i watch porn, and the guy is supposedly "hugely hung", i really get hot when i see that im bigger. Its a huge turnon to know im bigger than a porn star.

Im so proud my cock gets completely hard. so many dicks i see in porn this big (and there arent many) dont seem to get totally hard. i think im lucky to have such a gigantic cock that gets rock hard.

I never get to say it. i never have anyone to talk to about it. But my penis is so big. Its amazing.

more later...

Surprise

Sometimes I'm sitting here and I know I'm erect, but I'm not really focusing on it. Then I look down to see it and think "Holy shit!"...like I'd forgotten how big it looks. I wonder why it surprises me. After all these years, at middle age, am I still not aware how big it is? With all I've been through over it, why do I care? Do all guys maybe think this about their cocks regardless of it's size?

Sometimes, it doesn't feel like it's part of me. It seems as detached as a dildo would. I've been this size for 20 years and why am I not used to it by now?