Too big!

So this woman I know wants to sleep with me. So one night, when we were alone, she started kissing me and feeling me up. Since it's been years since I've even gotten a blowjob, I was pretty happy with this.

But then when she felt erection she got all funny and started pulling it out. "Oh my god, that's the biggest fucking cock I've ever seen.", she said. She sat back looking at it wide eyed and asked me how big it is. When I told her, she sorta sat there and then said, "That's probably too big for me. Where did you get that?" We joked about my size a bit, letting her feel how heavy it is and all, and i let her watch as i sucked on it a little, but nothing got her to do anything but stare.

It happens alot, me sitting there with my huge erection while someone stares at it or comments on it. I liked that it impressed her and that its the biggest one she'd ever seen, but I knew then, that I wasn't going to get anything. Usually, being the nice guy, I go "it's okay, dont worry. we can just hang out." and get nothing.

I can only imagine how scary it must be to see, it certainly amazes me when I look at it. Times like that though i wish I was big but not so massive. 7" would be ideal wouldn't it? Guys that big have it so lucky. This big, all I'm good for is the shock value.

Lonesome

Sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to about these things. So much of my sexuality is buried and a secret to those around me, it would be so wonderful to have a friend, male or female, to really just talk to me about my penis, its size, and other sorts of related topics. I know that sounds weird to some, but I just have so much I want to get off my chest and a blog is great, but I know no one is reading this. I wish I could share more stories about it, talk about the size of my orgasms (it's pretty freaky how much I can cum. But who can I tell that to?), or whatever is on my mind.

I sound obsessed. I probably am. Do you blame me?

Anyone need to make some extra money?

I would be willing to pay someone just to let me say to them:

"I have a gigantic, thick cock"

I think the whole purpose of this blog is to just finally be able to say that out loud without anyone thinking im a jerk, an ass, etc. I keep it to myself, very few people know, I even make an effort to hide the bulge when I'm not alone. But I just wanna get it off my chest. It's huge. So big, I can't believe it. So why can't I find anyone to tell that to?

Some more random thoughts

Some stream of consciousness thoughts about my cock:

I love that, without a frame of reference, my cock isnt terribly impressive looking. This is because its proportionally as thick as it is long, so it looks "normal". But then when i compare it to something else, I realize its fucking huge as hell. I also love that people who first see it sometimes dont react, until they cant get their hands around it and go "ooooohhh".

i take it for granted that i can stroke it with both hands. most guys only need one. i feel bad for them that they dont know the sensation of holding a heavy thick cock in both hands, with plenty of room left over.

When i watch porn, and the guy is supposedly "hugely hung", i really get hot when i see that im bigger. Its a huge turnon to know im bigger than a porn star.

Im so proud my cock gets completely hard. so many dicks i see in porn this big (and there arent many) dont seem to get totally hard. i think im lucky to have such a gigantic cock that gets rock hard.

I never get to say it. i never have anyone to talk to about it. But my penis is so big. Its amazing.

more later...

Surprise

Sometimes I'm sitting here and I know I'm erect, but I'm not really focusing on it. Then I look down to see it and think "Holy shit!"...like I'd forgotten how big it looks. I wonder why it surprises me. After all these years, at middle age, am I still not aware how big it is? With all I've been through over it, why do I care? Do all guys maybe think this about their cocks regardless of it's size?

Sometimes, it doesn't feel like it's part of me. It seems as detached as a dildo would. I've been this size for 20 years and why am I not used to it by now?

Touching base

I know a few weeks have gone by without an update...I'm usually unsure what to write about. As I keep saying, this is a rare thing for me, confessing secrets about my life. I know I want to talk about the nude modeling I did in college, the Large Penis Support Group site, and a dozen or so amazing events that have happened to me, but I generally wouldnt know where to begin. Plus, there is a bit of internal resistance going on, as I feel a) no one is reading this and b) no one is believing me. Disbelief is a common event if i admit to some of my more wild days...not to mention if i tell someone how huge i am. I guess I dream of being with a person where we share so much trust that I can open up about these sorts of things.

One short comment to make though. Years ago, in college, a couple who were friends of mine used to invite me over to hang out and, at times, watch them have sex. Id sit in a chair by the bed masterbating while they went at it. They enjoyed the exhibitionism (as did I) and it was a win/win short-term thing. However, once they had a baby, the husband became so dangerous and violent that the state had to secretly relocate the mother and son. That was over 10 years ago and I've heard from neither since.

Until 2 weeks ago when the mother reached out to me to say hello on Facebook. She has been living in another state, doing well, and said she really missed our friendship. So we were talking about the whole situation of her moving, whether she missed her old life, and she blurted out "I miss your penis. You have the most beautiful cock I've ever seen!". Well, i was taken aback by her forwardness. We went on to talk about it and she told me how she has thought about it for years and had wished that she could experience it. "I've never ever seen one THAT big." She told me hot wet it made her to watch me stroke it in front of her. She told me how jealous her husband was and how he forbade her to touch me. And she told me of all the men she's been with over the years, none came close to how sexy and perfect my dick is.

I think I was on cloud 9 for a few days after that conversation. Nothing beats a gorgeous blonde woman telling you how beautiful your cock is. Esp over a decade later on her own impetus when you know she clearly is still longing for it.

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